A Writers Confession…

To date, 112,444 words.  I’m only about 2/3 through the rough manuscript.  Both concepts are equally disturbing.

Have I really typed that many words?  What do I do with this mountain?  How do I divide it?  I’m close to a chapter that could work for a cliffhanger, but I hate those.  Plus, that would leave the remainder short on word count for a novel.

But the real confession…

It’s a Romance.

That wasn’t the plan!  I read Sci-Fi and Fantasy.  I want to write Sci-Fi and Fantasy.  I gave up on romance in my teens (in the 80’s), because the characters were too stupid to deserve any happiness.  I won’t list the writers who did this to me, they have followers.

Because most of my manuscripts-in-progress have some element of Romance, I spent the last three years trying to play catch up.  There are many improvements to the genre, stronger characters, better plot lines, believable dialogue.  Personally, my discovery of Paranormal Romance, with the smaller Fantasy sub-genre, was the only way I was able to make sense of the things I was writing.

I keep telling myself that it’s a Sci-Fi with a romance sub-plot, but it’s not.  This story is ‘girl meets boy’.  It’s on a planet far from Earth, but in our Galaxy.  About three or four hundred years in the future.  I asked myself, “How difficult would it be to find a man acceptable for this particular woman?”  Turns out, pretty damn hard.

The problem?  It’s not a good romance by Romance standards.  The carnal relationship starts right away, not delayed for effect.  The male antagonist isn’t an Alpha-hole  who needs to be reformed.  The female protagonist isn’t in her twenty’s, naïve, and needs to be sexually educated.  It’s almost bizarre opposite land.  I will be pushing  Romance readers away in droves.

The squishy bits will turn off most traditional Sci-Fi readers, although that genre has made some changes, too.

Am I blurring genre lines or just writing something unmarketable?

On top of all that, apparently I’m writing ‘hard core erotica’, although getting a definitive definition for that is difficult.  I try for the ‘pan away to the fireplace’ trick, but it’s ridiculous, considering how much of the relationship changes in bed.  I can’t just say, “She is falling for the guy, and decides on hot sex and a relationship.”  I have to show that, right?Anyway, ‘Bad Sex Scene Award’, here I come.  Yay!

So, apparently, I’m writing an Epic length, ‘hard’ Erotic Sci-Fi Romance.  My potential readers are few.  I’m so screwed.

Next week, let’s explore the confusing world of erotica.  Look for my next blog; When is a Cock not a Rooster?  Warning, 18 and over!

Todays topic: Pseudonyms

As those who know me may have noticed, I have been playing with using the original spelling of my given name.  My parents tried to make pronunciation easier for people, and used a phonetic spelling.  At my first doctors appointment my name was called…”Danny?”  Oops!  What followed was many years of explaining…

Temptation is strong to use an unrecognizable name, since there seems to be an element of erotica in my writing.  Have I not mentioned that?  It is because of the derision heaped on those who write romance and erotica.  The words ‘trash’, ‘smut’, and ‘useless’ have been thrown around by writers I deeply respect.  I know the moment I publish will be the moment I will never be respected, by these people and many others.  I am learning to live with that.  Personally, I don’t read much contemporary romance, although I have found several paranormal romance writers I adore.

Strangely enough, I have used aliases all my life.  First was my characters from D&D (original boxed edition) and other role playing games.  Then I spent my twenties and beyond in the Society for Creative Anachronism, where I created a persona. I am surprisingly comfortable with a pen name.  It’s like a mask at a friends party.  Your friends know who you are, but you are partially hidden from strangers.  Perfect.

So, if I use ‘Danae’, what about a last name?  There are the obvious choices; Penman, Penwoman, Penname, Pseudonym, Scribbler, or maybe just ‘Hack’. The less obvious choices from my likes; Winter, Snow, Capricorn, Malachite, Obsidian, Oak, Willow, Grey, Wulf or Wolf.  I could even use ‘Jones’, most people probably think it’s fake.  (Sorry, Hubby.)  Hmmm…

Word count to date: 18,992  That’s averaging just over 2,000 words a day this week.  Started chapter six, today.  I seem to have hit a flow.

Yay me!